Issue 03

Queer Out Here Issue 03

Queer Out Here Issue 03 cover by Dev Moore

What does it mean to gain or lose a connection with nature or place? To move in familiar or unfamiliar landscapes? To form relationships with other creatures, myths and histories? Queer Out Here Issue 03 asks these questions through poetry, diaries, music, monologues, prose, field recordings and conversations - while passing through seasons and countries, memories and cities, woods and weather. Jump on a bike, lace up your walking boots, hop on a reindeer sled and take your ears adventuring!

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Information about Issue 03

Length: 1:20:29

Transcript: Google Docs / PDF

File size: 155MB (.mp3)

High quality audio version: Google Drive (1.28GB, .wav)

Cover art: Dev Moore (Instagram / Twitter / Patreon). Dev says, “When I lived in Wales, sometimes I would head to the valleys to wander through the woods. I remember a clearing in Cwm Clydach which I came across accidentally in late summer, deep with moss and dappled light. The woods in Britain retain its ancient history, the lost pathways of people and animals past, the bones beneath your feet - nature will always be there, waiting to take you back.”

Show notes: See below.

Content notes: The pieces in Queer Out Here talk about many things related to being queer and the outdoors. This issue contains swearing, queerphobia (mostly homophobia and transphobia), mentions of drinking and physical violence, risky activities and environments, mention of misogyny/sexism including passing reference to sexual harassment, dead animals, sensual encounters (not explicit). If you have specific anxieties or triggers, you may wish to ask a trusted friend to listen and give you feedback. You could also check the transcript for particular words, or send us an email. In particular this issue contains the following:

  1. Queerphobic slurs in “Home” and “Half Moon Lake”.

  2. Description of a dead animal in “You Gather Their Bones”.

  3. Wind distortion in audio in several places, notably in “Walking the Spaces Between”.

Show notes for Issue 03

Introduction - Jonathan and Allysse

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  • Short description: Opener, welcome, thank yous and housekeeping. The sound of a small stream plays beneath Allysse and Jonathan’s introduction.

Sweeper - Anna, Jessica, Dan and Jonathan

adventure - Narinda Heng

  • 0:02:44

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  • Short description: Poem. A Khmer American backpacking instructor reflects on the differences between her mother’s and her own attitudes towards adventuring.

  • Creator bio: Narinda Heng has worked in experiential education since 2014, starting with GirlVentures as a volunteer climbing mentor and then as a backpacking and rock climbing instructor. She’s also worked with National Outdoor Leadership School, Dunn School and Eagle Rock School. She is currently an instructor at the Stanford Adventure Program and will work with GirlVentures again this summer. Prior to 2014, Narinda worked in the nonprofit sector and Asian American arts community in Los Angeles. From rock climbing trips to extended wilderness expeditions, she values group outdoor experiences as opportunities to grow self-awareness, learn effective communication and practice interdependence. As an instructor, she emphasizes reflection and curiosity around the complexities of history, place and identity. Aside from teaching rock climbing and backpacking, Narinda spends her time making pottery, baking with wild yeast and writing.

  • Creator links: Website / Instagram

  • Creator statement: Since 2012, I’ve put together annual collections of poetry and writing as a way to process the year and to share with people. Today I’m sharing a poem from my 2015 collection, from somewhere along the way. That year, I was just beginning to embark on work as an outdoor educator, and reflecting on what that meant to me as a child of Khmer refugees. I’m constantly ruminating on what it means to work in the outdoors and participate in it in these particular ways, and the contradictions that exist there. If you relate to these thoughts, I’d love to hear from you.

Go to Hell (The Road to Hell 1) - Julia Freeman

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  • Short description: Diary. Short diary-like recordings made while cycling to Hell from Northern Germany in Autumn 2018. The first of four diary entries found in this issue.

  • Creator bio: Julia is a geek, currently residing in Amsterdam. She built herself a bike and has since been riding far and wide, training for ultra endurance bike racing.

  • Creator link: Twitter

  • Creator statement: In the four diary entries I talk about Hell, about Åmal, whether to quit or not, and generally the discomfort of long distance cycling.

The Nature of Queerness - Kaj Jensen

  • 0:09:49

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  • Short description: Conversation. Friends Susannah and Kaj talk about their relationships to nature on a walk at Sauvie Island.

  • Creator bio: Kaj is a trans, genderqueer person who recently completed the Masters of Creative Writing programme at the University of Brighton. They write personal narrative essays, speculative fiction, poetry and video games in addition to creating audio essays. They prefer to travel at human powered speeds, walking and cycling whenever possible. Kaj has learned to love backpacking and bike touring in the Pacific Northwest, where they now call home. When Kaj isn’t writing or doing research, they can often been found spying on birds and sneaking up on wild edible plants.

  • Creator links: Facebook / Instagram / Twitter

  • Creator statement: This piece is part of a much longer conversation during which Susannah and I compare our childhoods, I stop to identify birds and plants, and we ponder the existence of ghost cats. We have about as opposite experiences as you can get, since I grew up 20 miles from the nearest town, and 45 from the nearest 'city', and they grew up in New York City. Our relationship to nature is very different, but our struggles to inhabit our genderqueer/nonbinary bodies are quite similar in a lot of ways. I find that spending time in nature, especially doing challenging hikes or bike rides, helps me feel connected to and grateful for my body as it is, reducing my sense of dysphoria. I also have found that learning the names of the birds and plants in places I call home for any length of time helps me to feel connected and grounded, so I share a bit about that in the longer piece as well. Special thanks to Susannah H for letting me take them into the woods and ask a lot of questions.

  • Note: The land that is currently called Sauvie Island, and the broader Portland area, was illegally taken from the Multnomah tribe of the Chinook Indians.

Home - Jonathan

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  • Short description: Song. A reflection on the country town where Jonathan grew up - the beauty and the bigotry.

  • Creator bio: Jonathan is a walker and a stickybeak. He is one of the editors of Queer Out Here.

  • Creator links: Website / Twitter

  • Creator statement: I have a complicated relationship with the place I was born and grew up. I loved the river, the bush, the animals, the beach, the rainforest, the hills where we lived. But my desire to protect nature (expressed often and loudly from a young age) put me in conflict with a small town that pinned its identity on logging native forests and with peers who couldn’t wait to get a gun and go duck shooting. I felt that conflict more keenly, but more privately, as my awareness of my queer identity coalesced: when you’re a teenager surrounded by prejudice you learn to be strategic with your admissions and omissions. Time and distance have soothed some of the hurt I felt when I wrote and recorded this song over a decade ago - I’m more sad than angry, now. The atmosphere of that town - stultifying bigotry, queerphobia, tall poppy syndrome and toxic masculinity that surrounded us - didn’t only harm queer kids, sensitive kids, marginalised kids: it stunted everyone. I love the place. I wish I could have been happier there.

  • Note: This song was recorded on stolen Wurundjeri country. I pay my respects to Wurundjeri and Kulin Elders past and present - and acknowledge all Indigenous and First Nations people listening.

Half Moon Lake - Penelope Foreman

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  • Short description: Prose and poem. Penelope lost her bones-deep attachment to nature because being queer felt like she could never be natural again.

  • Creator bio: Penelope is a former teacher, storyteller, folklore magpie, landscape poet and industrial heritage enthusiast. Her roots are in Wales and Yorkshire and the rich artistic and cultural heritage of both these wild, working, wind-and-rainswept landscapes. With almost a decade’s experience in teaching, specialising in challenging behaviours and working in areas classed as deprived, Penelope is a passionate proponent of creative arts, outdoors and hands-on learning. As a community archaeologist she helps people embed themselves in place, past and heritage by bringing archaeology alive in creative ways. She is rarely without her favourite hat, glittery Dr Marten boots and her ideas notebook.

  • Creator links: Twitter / Instagram

  • Creator statement: When I was a child, I was indistinguishable from the landscapes around me. My skin was earth and my bones forest - and I ran with other children through the wild with abandon. But as soon as I became “woman”, and a non-straight woman at that, suddenly this illusion of harmony was shattered. I want to talk about how the queer experience of basic human interaction, of existing in places we used to feel totally at home and at one with, changes with the weight of society's assumption of heterosexual sexuality, hormones, and adulthood. This piece has only become more poignant as I see a return to the dark, lonely, frightening Section 28 days of my own education. I don't want anyone to grow up frightened of themselves and with that immense, painful loss of belonging that homophobia and LGBTQ+ erasure makes horribly possible.

Fucking Åmål (The Road to Hell 2) - Julia Freeman

  • 0:32:28

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  • Short description: Julia’s second diary entry. Further information above.

Sweeper - Gavin

RSPB Birdwatch - Mags

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  • Short description: Field recording, postcard. A review of doing the RSPB Big Garden Birdwatch in winter 2019, including some birdsong from summer.

  • Creator bio: Mags lives in East Sussex, UK and works for a local educational charity. She enjoys travel, photography and the outdoors.

  • Creator link: Website

  • Creator statement: On Sunday 27 January 2019 I took part in the RSPB Garden Birdwatch, which helps the RSPB to monitor trends and see how birds are doing. I filled up my feeders and observed from my living room window. The weather was cold and dull and I didn't observe as many birds as in previous years. I did spot blue tits, robins, great tits, a chaffinch, magpie, pigeon and a pesky grey squirrel who decided to try and consume as much of the bird food as possible! A relaxing hour doing something useful before the heavens opened and it started to pour down.

Finnish Winter Adventure - Emily and Jenny

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  • Short description: Conversation, field recording. Jenny and Emily discuss the outdoor adventures they had in a remote part of Finland.

  • Creator bio: Emily and Jenny are a couple of outdoor adventurers and homebodies living on Wurundjeri land in Melbourne, Australia.

  • Creator statement: We went on a holiday to Finland, using a tour group to go on a "Finnish Winter Adventure" in a national park in the north of Finland. We did some conversational field recordings and Jonathan interviewed us about our experience the week after.

  • Note: Recordings in Finland were made on Saami Homeland, which has been occupied by the Saami people for thousands of years.

Satyrs - Pablo Miguel Martínez

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  • Short description: Poem. This short poem reflects Pablo Miguel Martínez’s love of nature, history, art and men.

  • Creator bio: Pablo Miguel Martínez’s collection, Brazos, Carry Me (Kórima Press), received the 2013 PEN Southwest Book Award for Poetry. Writing in the San Francisco Chronicle, Sandra Cisneros praised Brazos, Carry Me as her favorite book of 2013. Pablo’s chapbook, Cuent@, was published by Finishing Line Press in February 2016. Pablo’s work has appeared in numerous U.S. publications, including Bilingual Review/Revista bilingüe, Gay and Lesbian Review, Inkwell, North American Review and Pilgrimage. He has been a recipient of the Robert L.B. Tobin Award for Artistic Excellence, the Oscar Wilde Award and the Chicano/Latino Literary Prize. His literary work has received support from the Artist Foundation of San Antonio, the Alfredo Cisneros Del Moral Foundation and the National Association of Latino Arts and Culture. Pablo is a Co-Founder of CantoMundo, a U.S. retreat-workshop for Latinx poets. He resides in his hometown, San Antonio, Texas.

  • Creator link: Twitter

  • Creator statement: I have long imagined the ancients' expressions of what we currently refer to as homoeroticism. That fascination serves as a personal reminder that queer people have lived and loved even when we were excluded from the official record and/or widely circulated representations.

You Gather Their Bones - Jade Wallace

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  • Short description: Poem. A recording of a poem Jade wrote about feeding feral cats in downtown Toronto with their then-lover.

  • Creator bio: Jade Wallace is a legal clinic worker and writer whose fiction, poetry and essays have been published internationally, including in Studies in Social Justice, The Town Crier, and The Dalhousie Review. Their latest chapbooks are Rituals of Parsing (Anstruther Press, 2018) and Test Centre (ZED Press, forthcoming 2019). They are an organizing member of Draft Reading Series, a member of the collaborative writing partnership MA|DE and one half of The Leafy Greens, a band that has been incorrectly described as "psychedelic stoner metal."

  • Creator links: Website / Twitter / Instagram / Facebook

  • Creator statement: In downtown Toronto, there is a well-known neighbourhood called Kensington Market, which is home to a large population of feral cats. Local volunteers set out food and water for the cats year-round, as well as taking up other initiatives to help ensure the cats' well-being. A few years ago, I was in my first visibly queer relationship with someone who fed the cats weekly and often I would tag along as they made their rounds. One of this person's other and unrelated habits was tenderly collecting the bones of dead animals they found and setting them among stones, feathers, and other ephemera in beautiful quasi-shrines throughout their apartment. I thought that both the feeding of the cats and the collecting of the bones were not only good but also mystical and inspiring undertakings by my lover. These two preoccupations collided one day when we came across a striking dead starling while feeding the cats. A choice had to be made.

Sweeper - Dan

Good Intentions (The Road to Hell 3) - Julia Freeman

  • 0:53:55

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  • Short description: Julia’s third diary entry. Further information above.

Walking the Spaces Between - Jonathon Stalls

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  • Short description: Monologue, field recording. Move by foot with Jonathon Stalls after a snow storm on urban streets in Denver, Colorado.

  • Creator bio: In 2010, Jonathon spent 242 days walking across the United States. He has continued to walk alongside thousands of people for thousands of miles. He's a passionate artist, social entrepreneur/co-op owner and advocate for social, economic and racial justice. He is also LGBTQIA+, Creator of Intrinsic Paths and Founder of Walk2Connect. He finished his studies at the Living School for Action and Contemplation in 2017 and has committed much of his life to help people deepen and heal relationships to one another, to the natural world and to themselves.

  • Creator links: Intrinsic Paths on Patreon / Facebook / Website / Twitter / Instagram; Jonathon Stalls on Twitter / Instagram; Walk2Connect on Twitter / Website

  • Creator statement: It's a raw, urban, traffic-filled invitation to moving more the way we're made to outside of our walls, screens, and automobiles. I believe so deeply that queer lives are essential to a more loving, just, and human future. Our bodies, stories, reflections, and art are needed more than ever in public - outdoor spaces, whether that be on nature trails, rural dirt roads, or urban streets.

  • Note: Walking on mostly Arapaho and Cheyenne lands (Colorado front range).

Nature Walk - Johnnie Gale

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  • Short description: Poem. Johnnie created Nature Walk while taking a stroll along a creek - it is a spur of the moment piece.

  • Creator bio: Johnnie is a multi disciplinary gender-queer artist. He is a poet, working in both performance and Spoken word. He is also a videographer/photographer, creating video art, poetry and postcards from where ever he is at the moment. He is a Zinester creating culinary themed zines, photography zines and per zines. Years ago he got a degree in Media Arts. He worked as a professional cook/chef in world renowned restaurants/hotels. He likes to draw and paint, play with his cat and spend time with his spouse. Together they are the Artistic Nomads, two people looking to live and work full time on the road, creating art and experiencing life. His photography has been focused on flowers and food, with a bit of abandoned buildings thrown in. He loves the sweeping vistas of both the Sonoran desert and the Plains where he currently lives.

  • Creator links: Johnnie on Twitter; Artistic Nomads on Twitter / Website

  • Creator statement: Nature Walk happened in early Spring, 2016, in a suburb/rural area of Kansas. It is a piece I created while visiting my current home, Kansas. It was early spring, I was on my daily walk. I realized that I have a recording device with me at all times. On the spur of the moment I read this piece into the recorder of my smart phone. Extracted for your listening pleasure is the audio recording of this piece. The video can be seen on YouTube. I love nature in all of its different states and environments and am inspired to create more pieces like this one.

The British Countryside - Allysse Riordan

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  • Short description: Field recording. People using the British countryside, including horses, cars and bikes on the road.

  • Creator bio: Field Recordist. Sound Artist. Photographer. Writer. Microadventurer. Usually found traipsing in the countryside if not inside creating something from material collected while outside.

  • Creator links: Website / Twitter / Instagram

  • Creator statement: I set out to record a piece about my love of cycling but while I was doing so, this field recording happened and I fell in love with it. I was standing on a quiet Somerset lane next to my bike. As normal there was some shooting going on (clay I assume) and a lot of birds. I was enjoying the relative quiet when a small airplane came in, followed by cyclists, cars, horse riders, a bigger airplane, and finally the shooting and birds again. I felt I had captured a slice of a typical beautiful Spring Sunday in the lanes of Somerset when everybody is out enjoying the sun. All I was missing were joggers and ramblers but then, they were probably in the fields rather than the road.

Sweeper - Gemma

Been There, Done That (The Road to Hell 4) - Julia Freeman

  • 1:15:00

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  • Short description: Julia’s final diary entry. Further information above.

Conclusion - Jonathan and Allysse

  • 1:19:19

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  • Short description: Concluding comments and thanks. The sound of a small stream plays beneath the voices.

Issue 03 Preview

A tantalising taste of what’s on the menu in Queer Out Here Issue 03.

The wonderful poems, conversations, music, diaries, monologues and field recordings of Issue 03 will be served up to you in a week or two. Until then, whet your appetite with this snack!

Information about Issue 03 Preview

Length: 1:48

File size: 3.5MB (.mp3)

Transcript: Google Docs

Content notes: We don't think there's anything to flag up in this preview. If you notice something we've missed, please send us an email so we can add a note here.

You can also find this preview on Vimeo (below), SoundCloud and YouTube (including a sneak preview of our super new cover by Dev Moore). Watch, listen, share! We hope you’re looking forward to Issue 03 as much as we are.

Off Track presents Queer Out Here

Special edition of Queer Out Here

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Off Track presents a special edition of Queer Out Here, featuring a selection of pieces from Issue 01. Off Track, with Ann Jones, is an Australian radio show from ABC’s Radio National. Every week, Off Track explores an aspect of the natural world - anywhere from deep in the ocean to high in the mountains, from the outback to suburban back yards. We love this programme, and we are delighted to be featured in their series of “some of the best of international nature broadcasting and audio”. You can also find this special issue on the Off Track website.

If you enjoy this edition, please share it with your best people - and let us know! You can find us on Twitter and Facebook, check out the Off Track website and find Ann Jones on Twitter.

Information about Off Track presents Queer Out Here

Length: 32:47

Transcript: Google Docs / PDF

File size: 31.5MB

High quality audio: Google Drive (360MB, .wav)

Cover art: Elements from both Off Track’s header image and our Issue 01 cover by Emma Charleston.

Content notes: Pieces in Queer Out Here talk about many things related to being queer and the outdoors. This special issue contains: a piece with a rhythmic, meditative, potentially hypnotic cadence; mentions of mild physical injuries and blood; poems about family estrangement; discussion of concerns relating to transition processes and exercise as a weight loss strategy. Please see content notes from Issue 01 for more information.

Show notes: This special issue is an edited version of Queer Out Here Issue 01, featuring pieces chosen by the Off Track team. Details about each of the featured pieces (and the creators, of course!) can be found in the show notes for Issue 01 and on the Off Track website. The running order for Off Track presents Queer Out Here is as follows.

  1. Off Track introduction - Ann Jones

  2. Queer Out Here introduction - Jonathan and Allysse

  3. Sweeper - Gary

  4. An Aborted Swim (Ladies' Pond) - Jo Impey

  5. As I am Walking (I am Becoming) - Jonathan

  6. Sweeper - Ruth

  7. Excerpt from Floodlight Viscera #12 - Erin Kyan

  8. Off Track insert - Ann Jones

  9. Highway, Shepparton and Rooms - Belinda Rule

  10. Sweeper - Emma

  11. New Year's Day Thoughts - Jenny List

  12. Off Track outro - Ann Jones

Issue 02

Queer Out Here Issue 02

Queer Out Here Issue 02 cover by Eris Barnes

Join us on a reflective journey into the outdoors. Bask in spaces present, remembered and imagined; travel from mountain lakes to holy wells, from canals to backyard ponds; grapple with physical and emotional hardship; take your ears adventuring. (We’ve even got a marriage proposal thrown in for good measure!) The pieces in Queer Out Here Issue 02 include audio postcards, conversations, music, musings, field recording and poetry from queer/LGBTQIA+ folks around the world.

If you enjoy this audio zine, please share it with your friends - and let us know via Twitter, Facebook or email.

Information about Issue 02

Length: 1:09:28

Transcript: Google Docs / PDF

File size: 133.4MB

High quality audio version: Google Drive (1GB, .wav)

Cover art: Eris Barnes (Tumblr/Twitter). Eris writes, “My inspiration for the cover was pretty solely based on a tree I remember in my primary school when I was maybe 5 or 6 years old. It was the hip, happening place for making fake food out of mud and rocks, and daring your friends to eat the little purple flowers. Unfortunately, the tree was torn down during the school's renovations on the play equipment and football field, but that only motivated me more to draw my memories of it.”

Show notes: See below

Content notes: The pieces in Queer Out Here talk about many things related to being queer and the outdoors. This issue contains some swearing, mentions of physical and emotional distress, difficult family relationships and social situations, experiences of physical injury and hardship, danger from the elements and being misgendered. If you have specific anxieties or triggers, you could check the transcript for particular words or ask a trusted friend to listen and give you feedback. If we've missed something obvious, please send us an email so we can add it. Some people might wish to take note of the following:

  1. Lady’s Well, Holystone - starts at 3:22 - wind distortion in audio

  2. Failure - starts at 21:51 - emotional distress, mentions difficult family relationships

  3. Nonbinary Nomads - starts at 47:01 - mentions minor physical injuries and physical danger from the elements, hunger and thirst, uses the word “crazy”, discusses being misgendered

  4. On the Cuckoo Trail - starts at 59:16 - at one point a fly buzzes close in the right channel

Show notes for Issue 02

Introduction - Jonathan and Allysse

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  • Short description: Opener (45 seconds), welcome, thank yous and housekeeping.

Sweeper - Rainbow Ramblers

Lady’s Well, Holystone - Mags

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  • Short description: Field recording/monologue. A walk around Lady’s Well in Holystone, Northumberland National Park.

  • Creator bio: Mags is 50 years old and has lived in the South East of England for the last 20 years. She was born in Newcastle Upon Tyne and returns to the area several times a year. Mags enjoys travel and photography.

  • Creator link: Twitter

  • Creator statement: “This recording was made in May 2018 during a visit to Northumberland National Park. Lady's Well, which is in the care of the National Trust, lies on the edge of the village of Holystone. The pool is surrounded by a grove of trees and it is rumoured that it was used to baptise early Christians. The village is supplied with its water from the spring that also feeds the pool. A stone cross was added to the pool in the Victorian era. A 15th century statue of St Paulinus lies at the east end of the pool. What were the origins of the well? Were they pagan, Roman or perhaps celtic? One can only speculate.”

Ripples in a Pond at Night - Mary Ann Thomas

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  • Short description: Monologue. I watched sunset from the backyard of the house I lived in while in rural upstate NY. Mohawk land.

  • Creator bio: Mary Ann Thomas is the brown queer daughter of Indian immigrant parents, a travel nurse, bike tourist, and writer. She has bicycled over 10,000 miles in the last five years: in 2014, she bicycled solo from San Diego to Montreal; in 2017, she biked across India from the Himalayas to Kerala, the state at the tip of the subcontinent where her family is from. As a writer, she has attended the VONA Travel Writing Workshop in 2015 and 2017. Since 2015, her work has been published in numerous literary journals and travel platforms, which include Autostraddle, She Explores, Panorama: The Journal of Intelligent Travel, The Rumpus, and On She Goes. She has been featured on several podcasts, including The Dirtbag Diaries, Musafir Stories, and The Ethical Traveler. She is a presenter at the WTF Bikexplorers Summit.

  • Creator links: Instagram / Website

  • Creator statement: “Living in a rural area increased my capacity to take on responsibilities and clear my mind. This happened through the time I spent outside, watching ripples on the water, feeling the sun on my skin, and letting stress dissolve from my body. In this piece, I sit out by the pond and talk about writing, being outside, and pleasure.”

Beloved (Emily in Love and Ortanique) - Stone Strike’s Lost Weekend Remix

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  • Short description: Ambient music. A remix I made of an original tune by Emily In Love & Ortanique. (Used with permission.)

  • Creator bio: Stone Strike grew up in the foothills of the Misty Mountains in North Wales before packing my spotted hanky on a stick, eventually washing up on the unforgiving concrete shores of London.

  • Creator links: Stone Strike has chosen to highlight the work of Emily in Love and Ortanique

  • Creator statement: “Getting older and being less able to "get out and about", I've turned increasingly to music for its ability to invoke a sense of time and space. The concept of hauntology has brought its own resonance - the music of Burial being a prime example. When Emily sent me her new tune, I was struck by that same sense of time and space and inspired to remix it in a way which reflected that. I took a small sample from the tune, applied some granular synthesis and a minimal amount of post-production. The result is, I hope, true to the original while highlighting that sense of urban hiraeth that I felt on first listen.”

Sweeper - Jessica

Failure - Julia Freeman

  • 0:21:51

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  • Short description: Monologue. Thinking about failing.

  • Creator bio: Julia is a geek, currently residing in Amsterdam, she built herself a bike, and has since been riding far and wide, training for ultra endurance bike racing.

  • Creator link: Twitter

  • Creator statement: “Monologue discussing thoughts on failure, both in an outdoors context and for LGBTQ persons.”

Snow, Tyres, Breath, Song - Nikki

  • 0:34:10

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  • Short description: Field recording. A field recording of movement and stillness in the snow.

  • Creator bio: Nikki is newly mobile by foot and by bike and enjoying exploring new territories close to home and further afield.

  • Creator statement: “The margins of a park in a large city. It has a reputation as a popular place for cruising and, as a woman who wanders around on her own a lot, I've been explicitly and implicitly warned to stay away from here. In the early hours of the morning, however, I have the woods to myself, free from stigma or fearmongering, and my tyres are the first marks in the freshly fallen snow. Intense concentration on the subtleties of speed, traction, balance and momentum dissolves as I come to a stop: my awareness first shifting to my laboured breathing and then outwards to the songs of the birds that are around and above me. Introspection returns as I later contemplate my evolving relationship to this location, my identity and the assumptions made by myself and others. For a while there though, all that had dropped away and it was just me, my bike, the snow and the birds.”

No Gender - Lise

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  • Short description: Monologue with field recordings. Living with no gender and how the nature helps.

  • Creator bio: Lise is a graphic designer who lives in France. Since they were young, they were looking for their gender but were never happy with the boy or the girl look. After time, they find the answer: they are no gender, that's all. Just a human on Earth.

  • Creator link: Online portfolio

  • Creator statement: “In conversation about being no gender and how I live it. How the nature helps.”

Solo Camping at Murray Lake - Fenrir Cerebellion

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  • Short description: Field recording/monologue. A brief description of my time at the north end of Murray lake while boiling water for tea. Nlaka'pamux territory.

  • Creator bio: Fenrir is a white, ace-aro, gendervoid, mentally ill settler living on Unceded Coast Salish Territory, in the city of Vancouver. They come from and are eager to return to the Okanagan, Nlaka’pamux Territory, in the semi-arid climate of the Rocky Mountains. They moved to the city for medical resources in their transition and forgot to leave when they finished, until their friends and community started to leave the city one by one for the mountains, the islands, or across the continent. As a writer, musician, and avid knitter, they look forward to finding some remote place to live with their dog Sisko, where their primary concern is collecting enough firewood for winter.

  • Creator links: Twitter / Website

  • Creator statement: “After accidentally climbing a mountain at a smaller campsite the previous day, my dog and I moved to a quieter campground up the Coquihalla. It was my first time solo camping since my summer bike tour two years ago. After this recording, my cassette stove had just enough gas left for a morning cup of tea the next day, just before leaving.”

Sweeper - Emily

Nonbinary Nomads - Max and Jaye

  • 0:47:01

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Conversation. Audio recording about us and our adventures.

  • Creator bio: Max and Jaye are a nonbinary couple living in Monterey, CA. They do one backpacking trip every month and have explored tons of the USA including Zion, Yosemite, Bryce Canyon (to name a few)! Their future plans include hiking the John Muir Trail (summer of 2019) and getting married (summer of 2020). For their honeymoon, they plan on hiking the Pacific Crest Trail. Their other interests include roller derby, Olympic lifting, crossfit, reading, gardening and dogs!

  • Creator links: YouTube / Instagram / Facebook

  • Creator statement: “Max and Jaye are being interviewed in a car next to Lake Mary in Mammoth Lakes, CA during their hiking trip in the Sierras.”

Widewater - Dru Marland

  • 0:56:35

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Poetry. A bit of a state-of-the-nation poem, written in the aftermath of the Brexit referendum.

  • Creator bio: Dru is a poet, illustrator and mechanic who lives and works on a canal boat in the West of England.

  • Creator link: Blog

  • Creator statement: “The canal is a long, thin village, with a very diverse community living and moving on it, threading through the heart of Deep England.”

On the Cuckoo Trail - Chrissy, June and Jonathan

  • 0:59:16

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Interview/sound art. Three people having a chat during a summer walk along the Cuckoo Trail in East Sussex.

  • Creator/participant bios: Chrissy is a journalist, specialising in radio and audio. She is also a political campaigner. June is a keen hillwalker and chorister who loves all that Hastings has to offer. Jonathan is a walker and a stickybeak. He is one of the editors of Queer Out Here. All three are members of the Hastings and Rother Rainbow Alliance.

  • Creator/participant links: Jonathan: Blog / Twitter Chrissy: Instagram / Twitter

  • Creator statement: Jonathan: “A hot summer day, a busy East Sussex rail trail, a long group walk with HRRA’s Rainbow Ramblers. I recorded a meandering conversation with Chrissy and June as we walked and talked our way through a variety of subjects including political activism, living by the sea, local community networks and how we got into walking. With the more experimental edit, I have tried to emphasise the rhythm of walking and the momentum of our footsteps. I had to cut more than half of the original conversation, and I ended up rearranging narratives, weaving them together and drawing echoes of different stories through the piece. I hope that this also gives a sense of the fragmentary nature of conversations on long group walks - how people move around and how snippets of conversation can blend together into a new kind of whole.”

Conclusion - Allysse and Jonathan

  • 1:08:05

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Concluding remarks from the editors.

Issue 02 Preview

A taster of what’s to come in Queer Out Here Issue 02. Enjoy!

Hold onto your hats! Issue 02 will be breezing into your feeds and apps in the not-too-distant future. In the meantime, this preview should blow away a few cobwebs.

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Issue 01

Queer Out Here Issue 01

Issue 01 Cover by Emma Charleston

From the sea to the mountains, from cities to fields, along footpaths and highways and beaches, let us take your ears adventuring! The fifteen pieces in Queer Out Here Issue 01 include poetry, conversations, sound art, stories, interviews and field recordings from queer/LGBTQIA+ folks around the world. Full transcript and show notes available below.

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Length: 1:40:05

Transcript: Google Docs / PDF

File size: 137MB (.mp3)

High quality audio version: Google Drive (1GB, .aif)

Show notes: See below

Cover art: Emma Charleston. Emma writes, "I recently moved to the country and have been struggling with living in the countryside a bit - my heart will always lie in the city. One of the only ways in which I've succeeded in positively engaging with being outdoors 2 or 3 hours a day (while walking our dog) has been engaging with biology on a close up level, as the seasons change. So that was my inspiration. This is my first ever drawing using a tablet, too, so it's a bit experimental!"

Content notes: The pieces in Queer Out Here talk about many things related to being queer and the outdoors. This issue contains some swearing, descriptions of kissing/sex, mentions of exercise as a weight loss strategy, internalised homophobia, being in physical danger from cold and wildlife and transition-related concerns. If you have specific anxieties or triggers, you could check the transcript for particular words or ask a trusted friend to listen and give you feedback. If we've missed something obvious, please send us an email so we can add it. Some people might wish to take note of the following:

  1. As I am Walking (I am Becoming) - starts at 0:13:52 - rhythmic, meditative, potentially hypnotic cadence

  2. Story from the Appalachian Trail - starts at 0:17:18 - describes physical danger from cold and wildlife

  3. An Aborted Swim (Ladies’ Pond) - starts at 0:54:25 - mention of mild physical injuries and blood

  4. New Year’s Day Thoughts - starts at 0:59:22 - concerns relating to transition processes, exercise as a weight loss strategy

  5. Highway, Shepparton and Rooms - starts at 1:19:03 - family estrangement

  6. We’ve Won the Winter - starts at 1:14:51 - descriptions of sexual/sensual activities

  7. Beach Meditation at Bexhill - starts at 1:26:41 - significant wind distortion in audio

  8. Wendy at Camber Sands - starts at 1:28:11 - internalised homophobia

Show notes for Issue 01

Introduction - Jonathan and Allysse

Sweeper - Gary

A Walk Down My Path - Adele

  • 0:04:06

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Field recording/monologue. A walk along a path beside a rec ground in Brighton & Hove, trying to connect to nature in the city.

  • Creator bio: Adele has lived in Brighton for 9 years. She lives in a one and half bed flat in a block where most of the neighbours don’t know her name. She lives with her Bulgarian partner Elitsa. Now in their late 20s, early 30s they are feeling too old for the city and are working out how they might be able to get out . . . any people with a beautiful house in the country they want to rent out to reliable tenants - please get in touch!

  • Creator links: Twitter: @AdeleJBates

  • Creator statement: "A walk down a concrete path. My closest bit of nature."

As I am Walking (I am Becoming) - Jonathan

  • 0:13:52

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Poetry/sound art. A meditation while walking, about how our identity is related to our environment.

  • Creator bio: Jonathan is a walker and a stickybeak. He is one of the editors of Queer Out Here. Jonathan has a few places he considers home: the bush beside the Snowy River on GunaiKurnai country where he grew up; Melbourne, where he went to uni; and East Sussex in the UK, where he’s lived for the last six years.

  • Creator links: Blog: In Which I / Twitter: @jonathanworking / Twitter: @inwhichi

  • Creator statement: "A meditation while walking. I was thinking about how we bring ourselves into being, how bodies carry traces of the environments in which they are articulated, how we understand our embodied identity from deeply within but also in the way the world reflects our selves back to us. Not everyone can “be in nature” easily or in the same way, but I was thinking about why I feel so much more comfortable when I am in my walking clothes and boots, when I have been walking for an hour or two, when it’s just me and whoever I’m walking with, me and my pack and the path, me and my body, my breath, the wind, the trees, the birds, the sheep. Am I a different kind of person then? Does a person’s identity change as the way they are reflected changes? I was also thinking what that might mean for queer people. After all, despite some of our perceived risks from other humans (in the bush, in parks, in the countryside, in the woods, on the trail) the trees don’t care about the shape of our bodies, the path doesn’t care who we love or who we fuck. I composed and recorded the majority of this piece while walking, which I hope brings the form of the thought, the embodiment of it, into the piece. I was interested to find that the pace of my sometimes matched exactly, even across terrains and continents, but then my footsteps and narration diverged again into their own times and places."

Story from the Appalachian Trail - Aubri Drake

  • 0:17:18

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Monologue/story. A dangerously cold, snowy, icy walk in the woods, featuring an encounter with a moose.

  • Creator bio: Aubri Drake is a white, queer, genderqueer, trans hiker and backpacker. They section hiked the Appalachian Trail between 2013 and 2017, wearing out many shoes, breaking many trekking poles, and adopting a Southern baby queer along the way! When they're not out in the woods, they do medical research, rock climb, read, crochet, and cuddle their ginger tabby cat, Wash (yes, he's named for the pilot in Firefly).

  • Creator links: Articles: The Trek - Timex / Blog: Timex's Appalachian Trail Adventures

  • Creator statement: "The Appalachian Trail is a trail that runs from Georgia to Maine, in the United States. It is 2189.5 miles, give or take."

Excerpt from “Finding Home in the In-Between with Travis” - Flex Your Heart Radio

  • 0:30:16

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Interview. Mountains, snow sports and queer adventures with The Venture Out Project. Thank you so much to Travis from The Venture Out Project and Lacy from Flex Your Heart Radio for allowing us to use this excerpt from “Finding Home in the In-Between with Travis”. You rock!

  • The Venture Out Project: "We at The Venture Out Project believe in bringing the queer community together to experience the beauty and fun of the wilderness. Our trips are run by queer people for queer people and are open to people of all levels of experience."

  • Flex Your Heart Radio: "A podcast about body positivity, fitness, feminism, recovery, taking risks, and crushing it at life."

Sweeper - Ruth

Excerpt from Floodlight Viscera #12 - Erin Kyan

  • 0:37:46

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Poetry/sound art. Three snippets of life, at a cafe, on the beach in winter, on a road trip.

  • Creator bio: Erin Kyan is a disabled, queer, trans man whose writing leans in two drastically different directions. In his spoken word and zines, he touches on themes of vulnerability, courage, desire, and pain, often reaching for the warm and wet darkness that lurks within us. In his audio drama podcast Love and Luck, he gently paints a cheerful picture of love and community, presenting joy and hope as a remedy for hard times.

  • Creator links: Website: Erin Kyan / Twitter: @Erinkyan / Facebook: ErinKyanDotCom / Podcast: Love and Luck

  • Creator statement: "My poetry is centered in sensory experiences first and foremost. Supporting these stanzas with sound was a natural progression of the piece, another tool to build a stronger connection with the audience and bring them deeper into my experience."

Kenyan Journey - Ania Przygoda

  • 0:41:04

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Field recording/sound art. A blend of sounds, music, voices collected on a trip through Kenya in 2010.

  • Creator links: Website: Ania Przygoda / Twitter: @aniaadventure / LinkedIn: Ania Przygoda

  • Creator bio: Ania Przygoda is a freelance sound editor. She works on features and shorts, as well as commercials and online videos.

  • Creator statement: "I love traveling. I like to take my recorder and make binaural recordings of my trips as 'audio postcards'. In this way, I am non intrusive to my environment, and unnoticed as a sound recording. When listening back to them I am literally transported right where I was at that time."

Out with Frankie the Dog - EZ

  • 0:49:24

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Conversation/snippet. A winter walk, differences between English and Bulgarian countryside, dog poo in plastic bags.

  • Creator bio: EZ is studying Architectural Technology in Brighton University. Originally from Bulgaria but lived in the UK for the last 10 years. Thoroughly into architecture and art, enjoying living by the sea of Brighton and never found better place to live in England. Since 2012 she is blessed to be in a relationship with her love Adele.

  • Creator statement: "Before Christmas, stayed at Adele's family house in Burton upon Trent. Had a flu for a week and a half and tons of university work to do. This field walk was so relaxing and recharging. Always loved animals and being with them is such a special time, adding to this nature the combination becomes extremely appealing."

An Aborted Swim (Ladies' Pond) - Jo Impey

  • 0:54:25

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Conversation/field recording. An attempt to go swimming on Hampstead Heath is thwarted by ice on the pond.

  • Creator bio: Jo is a radio producer at the BBC World Service and an aspiring wild swimmer.

  • Creator links: Twitter: @JoannaImpey

  • Creator statement: "It’s a rainy Sunday in December. It’s been bitterly cold for the last 10 days. In London, Jo is wondering whether this will be the winter when she finally manages to keep swimming right through till spring. She last took a dip in the Ladies Pond at the end of November, when the water temperature was seven degrees. Now it’s near freezing – and sadly, as we’re about to hear, that thwarts her plans. She decides inspect the ice instead . . ."

Sweeper - Sam

New Year's Day Thoughts - Jenny List

  • 0:59:22

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Monologue. Thoughts on transition and why trans people might find themselves walking in the great outdoors.

  • Creator bio: Jenny List is an engineer and journalist whose roots are firmly in the North Oxfordshire countryside.

  • Creator links: Twitter: @Jenny_Alto

  • Creator statement: "Thoughts on the whole Queer Out Here thing and why some trans people go walking, during a New Years walk on the Oxon/Bucks border."

Excerpt from “Putting the ‘Out’ in Outdoors With Elyse Rylander” - MtnMeister

  • 1:06:38

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Interview. Queer youth trips with OUT There Adventures, queer people (re)claiming outdoors spaces and activities. Thank you so much to Elyse from OUT There Adventures and Ben from MtnMeister for allowing us to use this excerpt from Episode #172, “Putting the ‘Out’ tn Outdoors With Elyse Rylander”. You're fab!

  • OUT There Adventures: "We believe every young person deserves the opportunity to explore their identity in a positive and affirming environment. The goal is simple: empower queer young people through their connection with the natural world."

  • MtnMeister: "The podcast that explores the minds of those who explore."

We've Won the Winter - Liz Tetu

  • 1:14:51

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Poetry/non-fiction. Charts the development of a relationship through make-out sessions in the wood and long term illness.

  • Creator bio: Liz (sometimes Ulysses) Tetu is a gag comic artist and general writer. He’s written creatively about his own life for the 1888 Center, Impossible Archetype, and anthology My Body My Words. At Metropolitan State University, he puts together papers for his last classes in the Creative Sexual Communication major. When he finds time to put down the pen, he picks up bad habits like drinking straight from the milk carton or cussing at his boyfriend for leaving hickeys on his forehead.

  • Creator links: Tumblr: liz-isnt-fair

  • Creator statement: "Two young bi men, their relationship tied to the woods behind a local apartment building where they make out, have to adapt as one develops ulcerative colitis. This piece blends poetic prose with creative nonfiction."

Sweeper - Dan, Jonathan and Peter

Highway, Shepparton and Rooms - Belinda Rule

  • 1:19:03

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Poetry. Memory and place intertwine, so when we lose our families, we can feel exiled from the places we once loved

  • Creator bio: Belinda Rule is a Melbourne writer of poetry and fiction. Her work has appeared extensively in journals and anthologies including Meanjin, Australian Book Review, Westerly, Island, Cordite Poetry Review, The London Magazine and Best Australian Poems.

  • Creator links: Twitter: @BelindaRule

  • Creator statement: "Like many queer people, I am estranged from a large part of my family. We were a camping and travelling family, and I have quite a passionate relationship with the places we used to go. But the memory of family is intertwined with the memory of place, so that even when I am literally standing in the beloved place, I still feel that I am in exile. And that’s what these poems are about. These poems have appeared in print previously: ‘Highway, Shepparton’, Eureka Street, 20 June 2016; ‘Rooms’, foam:e 14 (March 2017)."

My Seaside - Allysse Riordan

  • 1:23:04

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Sound art/field recording. Listen closer to the sounds of the seaside, collect them to make memories

  • Creator bio: Ears open and pen at the ready, Allysse is a wanderer and a creator. When not at work, she explores the outdoors around her and further afield, documenting her journeys with the help of her microphones, pen, and camera.

  • Creator links: Website: Allysse Riordan

  • Creator statement: "My Seaside is an exploration of what the seaside sounds like to me. Made up of different beaches, it is an imagined place, a remembered place that I conjure up even when I'm nowhere near the sea."

Beach Meditation at Bexhill - Mags

  • 1:26:41

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Field recording. The waves splash and drag on the shingle, the wind leaps around the groynes.

  • Creator bio: Mags is a 50 year old woman, originally from the North-East of England, but who defected to the South East 20 years ago. She works for an educational charity and in her free time loves photography, travel, reading, music and to hug the odd tree! Mags has a fascination for wandering around old churches and graveyards too.

  • Creator links: Twitter: @Magsalex67 / Blog: With Each New Day

  • Creator statement: "I often find myself drawn to the sea when I need to escape the stresses of work and daily life. On this day, I had received a barrage of calls related to work and felt the need to escape. Bexhill is only a 20 minute drive away and the sun was shining so this was where I ended up. I find that the sound of the sea crashing onto the beach and the ebb and flow of the tide have the innate ability to create a sense of calm within me. At times I closed my eyes and just engaged with the sound of the sea and wind. I left some time later feeling a sense of calm had washed over me."

Wendy at Camber Sands - Wendy and Jonathan

  • 1:28:11

  • Transcript

  • Short description: Interview/field recording. A conversation ranging from LGBT walking groups to Machu Picchu, childhood and wild swimming.

  • Creator bio: Wendy is a second generation Holocaust survivor who lives by the sea on the south coast. Jonathan is one of the editors of Queer Out Here.

  • Creator statement: "Wendy was keen to contribute to Queer Out Here, but wasn’t sure about creating a piece herself, so she asked if Jonathan could record a chat while on one of the group walks and if he could edit it down for the zine . . . It’s a cold, clear December morning. There’s ice on the puddles in the Camber Sands car park. The wind is barely stirring, which is unusual for this beach, and the incoming tide laps at the sand with the smallest of saltwater tongues. There are dozens of people out and about - couples arm-in-arm going for a stroll, extended families bundled up in warm clothes, kids tearing in and out of the tall sand dunes, solo joggers, dog walkers and groups of runners in full lycra and neon pink shoes doing laps of the streets and the beach. And then there’s us, a dozen or so members of the Hastings and Rother Rainbow Alliance walking group, our identifying features mostly hidden under scarves, hats and coats. We’re off for our monthly walk - a very short one, this time, just up to the mouth of the River Rother and back along the sand. We pause for a few minutes by the river to chat and take some photos . . ."

Sweeper - Emma

Conclusion - Allysse and Jonathan

Issue 01 Preview

A teaser featuring snippets from some of the pieces in Queer Out Here Issue 01.

Issue 01 is almost ready to release. How exciting! It should pop up in your feeds and apps next week. In the meantime, we thought we'd give you a sneak peek of some of the great stuff we've got in store for you.

Information about Issue 01 Preview

Length: 1:18

File size: 2.5MB (.mp3)

Transcript: Google Docs / PDF

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Issue 00

An interview with the editors of Queer Out Here.

Issue 00

Allysse and Jonathan discuss how being queer/LGBTQIA+ might affect a person’s outdoor experiences, connections between creativity and the outdoors, what we love about field recordings and the kinds of places we’re drawn to.

Think of Issue 00 of Queer Out Here as a bit of an introduction - a taste of some themes that might be covered in the zine and a way of getting to know your editors. The “real” issues of Queer Out Here will be very different, with contributions from many people.

Information about Issue 00

Length: 52:02

Transcript: Google Docs / PDF

Content notes: If you have specific anxieties or triggers, you may wish to ask a trusted friend to listen to this interview and give you feedback. You could also check the transcript for particular words. There are two moments we’d like to note:

  1. 06:13-08:30 - Allysse describes negotiating a situation that might have had the potential for homophobic violence (no physical or verbal violence occurred).

  2. 44:52-45:00 - Jonathan whispers close to microphone, which can be an odd sensory experience, especially if you’re wearing headphones.

File size: 99.9MB (.mp3)